i had an enlightening weekend, and i decided to stick to the idea of using the diary i’m writing as the only source of material.
i realized that the line i was following of creating many things (“games”, scenes, texts) is closer to my comfort zone than the process of just focusing on one thing for a long period of time. i started the diary as a way of “grounding” my work, and now as a challenge and to keep the ground i’ll focus on its performance only. i also find interesting and attractive the act of patience and constrains that come with writing just a little every day, using the chance operations (in contrast with the way i like to spew words, ideas, lists, conflicts, questions, nouns, adjectives, categories, etc). furthermore, this decision is consistent with an opposition to mass-production (although it’s inconsistent with the search for inconsistency (?)).
now that the image is relatively clear and simple, i was able to write a new description for my thesis statement. i would like to include at some point my concern with the energy source for the performance: it would be interesting if it all could be powered by a battery charged by myself and/or with a renewable energy source.
also all of this is good because now i can work in making the schedule for the next weeks.
this is what i wrote as a new description:
everything must go is a chance-based, anti-spectacular, free culture, digitally influenced, dialectic, mono-channel, monologue, that attempts to share and reconcile the personal contradictions that come from wanting to help saving the living world from catastrophe while using an imagination severely limited by western thought and colonialism. the idea is to get together to listen and to give ourselves a low-imagery, no-screens, possibly boring, non-complacent and unintelligible time guided by a relatively postmodern (?) bard. the idea is not to move us in order to take any action - our lives are way too comfortable already (and we might do better without the illusion of control over the outcomes of our individual and collective actions). --- the event happens in a theater or in a park at night. the venue is lit only by a single digital candle residing inside a reused plastic container. the character, juaulitlán, wears artisanal white cotton clothes, is barefoot, has most of the face covered by a red bandana, and sits in the floor near the candle. some electronic elements complement the outfit: cables, a control panel with four buttons, a small computer, a microphone, a speaker, and a battery. the audience members are welcome to sit in the floor, in cushions or petates, forming a circle with juaulitlán. juaulitlán talks, recites, speaks for an hour in a fragmented way, changing between languages and between digital voice modulations. the words are somewhat related to the title: if we care about our lives in the present and future, then (maybe) everything must go. sometimes the speech is incomprehensible because of the language, the accent, and/or the amount of distortion used. in any case, "the medium is the message" (?), and this is not about logic, debate, and convincing, but the opposite(s). the spoken text comes from a diary written using chance operations: each day some coins were tossed to decide the amount of words, the topics, the languages and the text style (or modulation) for the corresponding entry. chance operations were used in the composition of the text in order to try to let go the illusion of control over the ideas conveyed; recycling the process followed by john cage in his diary: how to improve the world (you will only make matters worse). there are relatively interesting insights, relatively evocative questions, personal experiences, quotes, inner conflicts, and contradictions. there are not conclusions or resolutions, there's no meaning or purpose (or at least that's the intention (?!)).